So lately I’ve been reading lots of books about the upcoming shift/ascension/2012 that is coming up–you know, tips, guides, what to expect and how to handle it etc. There is a lot of useful information to be sure. As a matter of fact, the more I read, the more I realize I am right in the middle of the ascension process. After all, this past year has been FULL of shifts and what else would cause a person to quit their job and try to sell their house in this market? Well, one that does not believe in the reality someone else has dictated for her. So, as I sit on my couch on a lovely Thursday fall morning, writing and listening to music instead of standing in my classroom trying very hard to teach 30+ 6th graders the importance of knowing how to read a map, I ask myself the important questions–such as “what kind of coffee shall I brew this morning?”
Just kidding. I am actually asking myself things such as: “what do you really want from this world? What does your perfect world look like? Who is in it? Where are you going to live? What will you do for a living?” And I find that everyday these answers get easier and easier to answer...mainly because I just let go of all my preconceived notions of what I should be doing and just live in this movement. But, my brain leads me on to the next moment and the next and what might possibly be happening next week that I really should get a start on this week and...
And then a friend of mine snapped be back to reality. I had posted as a status on my gmail account “I wonder what’s next.” and she says to me, “why wonder: create your own reality.” And it hit me. That is exactly what I should be doing. Why can’t I have everything that I want? Yes, of course some work is going to go into it. I can’t wish that beautiful house by the water just by...well...wishing. I will have to get off the couch at some point, put the house on the market, and see about getting that dream job I want. But anything in this world is possible. It’s just all up to me to make it happen.
I was telling a very good friend of mine the other day how proud I was of her. How she had decided to take the year and make some improvements to herself and her life, and one of those steps included therapy. She looked at me and said “yeah, but it’s a long, long road.” And now it occurs to me, does it have to be a long road? Did someone tell her that or did she decide on her own? Was it a preconceived notion that it had to take a long time? It also reminds me of a joke:
Guy walks into a therapists office and says he has a problem. He believes there are monsters beneath his bed and he is terrified. Well the therapist explains that he can help the man solve his problems but it will take months of therapy and he can set up some more appointments and come in once a week or more to see him. The guy thanks the therapist and walks out of the office. Several weeks later, the therapist sees the guy walking down the street and stops him. He says “I haven’t seen you in a while. I thought we were going to work on your monster problem.” The guys says, “yeah, well after I saw you, I went to the bar across the street to have a drink. I spoke to the bartender about my problem and he had a genius idea. All I needed to do to get rid of the monsters underneath the bed was to saw off the bed posts. Monsters gone. And all it cost me was a beer!”
Now, don’t get me wrong. I am not discounting the affects of therapy. By all means, I think my life and outlook on things could have been very different a long time ago had I had some. However, you get what you give in this world. And if you decide that it will only take weeks instead of months to do something, then it is totally your decision. That is, after all, the whole point, right? It is all your decision. Free will, as you would have it. And so, who knows. I may get off this couch, sell this house and be sitting on a beach in Hawaii sometime next month. Don’t be surprised if I am.
Bless the present, expect the best, trust yourself. It is all up to you.
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